attempt at being meaningful that failed. Emily : the diaries look different w/diaryland.. Emily : on DJ/LJ, unless you're good at HTML and you know how to do it, they all look the same Bec/Kylie : yeah Bec/Kylie : EMILY =| Emily : KYLIE Bec/Kylie : I DONT SEE A DEEP AND MEANIGFUL ENTRY IN YOUR DIARY DAMMIT Bec/Kylie : =| Emily : HAHAHHA Due to request, here's my attempt to write something deep and meaningful. I felt really seperated from my friends today. I guess I'm feeling like that more and more lately...it really sucks. Dr. Sullivan says I seem to be doing better. I think I'm just getting better at hiding how I feel... They really bother me sometimes. not that I'm jealous (maybe I am?) but because it's how we used to be. and it makes me really sad...because it just makes me feel like I don't have anyone here anymore. and I hate it...I'm begnning to depend more and more on Becca and Kylie. Which I guess is good because I mean, there's really only one more year left here for me, right? But what about now? I hate seeing people with their perfect fucking lives and their perfect everything because it's human nature to not be perfect. and being the perfectionist that I am, I want to be like every stereotypical girl out there. I didn't plan on being the paranoid, over analytical person that I am. I'm sorry that I'm not skinny, or beautiful, or perfect but FUCK. I can't change it. I feel like I'm sharing too much. But Kylie told me to write so write I shall...just not at the moment because the series finale of Friends is about to begin and I need to go cry my eyes out over that. I'll be back... I've always wanted the kind of friendship that the people on Friends had... fuck. i can't be meaningful. |