i. hate. feeling. this. alone. all. the. time. i just took a nap and had a dream that everyone hated me. that's always something pleasant to dream about. especially when it involves your best friends. i just can't stand that feeling of helplessness, and hatred. i can't even begin to explain it. but i know that everyone i cared about was pissed off at me for some reason or another. every. single. one. and i just remember feeling like, "god, my life is over now...". i haven't felt like that in a long time. not since......we won't go there. jesus i just want to shoot myself now. and the sad thing is that i think they do hate. that they don't love me as much as i love them. and it kills me. |