- +.1, but I guess with not having gone for a month, it's not that much, eh? i'm on a strict new diet: no fat no sugar no cutting lets see how long the latter lasts (when you stop looking for it it will find you) i stopped looking, but it doesnt seem like anything's found me **unless you count the tears blood anger hostility** (but he is something. he's so much more than anything ive ever known) theyre so close yet so far drinking and dancing and having a merry old time while im sitting here wishing i could for once be one with the crowd im sick of pretending that its all allright that im not hiding anything iamhidingsomethingonlyitstoomuchformostpeopletofathomhellitstoomuchformetofathomwheneverithinkaboutitijusttellmyselfto |